Why do I keep doing this?
Beating myself up day after day..
Telling myself to stop.
You're eating me alive, you know..
Thinking about you could be the end of me.
I love you.
I can't stop thinking that we were infinite.
That we were going to be together forever.
Because of you my darling,
I can't think of anyone else that way.
Because although you've hurt me,
I still have feelings for you,
No matter how hard I try not to.
I miss you.
The way you made me smile.
The way you wrapped your hands around my waste.
The way you would make me feel.
You're a beautiful disaster.
One that I know I need to move on from.
...But just can't.